Missing my best friend

My mom recently passed away on April 30th, she was on hospice and I am blessed that I got to take care of her at home and was there until her last breath. She suffered from Alzheimers and I (her daughter) was her primary caregiver. December of 2013 she suffered a heartattack and then in February she broke her hip which made this journey extremely hard. I learned how to transfer, how to change a bed with mom still in it, how to change and bathe, wash her hair, dress all while she was in bed. At this time we moved in with my son and his wife to help with the caregiving of my mom. I think of her every day, she was my best friend and as much as she needed me, I was the one who needed her more. Every day I used to tell her I love you more and more every day and her response was I loved you first because I had you first. Life is just so hard now without her here, I am so lonely and sad and cry every day because I miss not only my mother but my best friend and I miss her so very much. Love you, always and forever mom...

Dolores Landavazo
Albuquerque, NM